Torture

Pain, the one thing no matter what you do you can't out run. It clings to you like a shadow, it lingers like smoke from a fire, it beats like hail from the sky, it shines like the light of day. No matter how you run or where you turn pain follows with percision accuracy. It could be best described like the postman rain or shine it delievers!
Drugs, pills, alchool, just numb it for short times and hide it while you hope to forget about it and move on. But eventually like the changing between night and day it will return to former glory. It will grow strong and it will regain its grip upon you.

3:57

Dreams turn to nightmares and memories turn to huantings, dreams and memories are suppose to be happy things that brighten and make the days pleasing and pleasurable. But for what seems like eons, my entire life actually have been darkened like an eclipse of the brain. Like the bright warm light from the sun has been replaced with storm clouds and umbrellas blocking any chance for the light to make it to my mind. Yet through all of this I hold a small candle of flickering light that pushes me through the darkness and prays to see the bright light again. That candle is so small and gental and must be guarded like a precious treasure. I fear what would happen if that light were to be exstinguished how dark would it get with the absentence of light. Now with the small candle there is but long shadows for the and dark images everywhere but if I had no light where would I turn then...

Path Away

Standing at the beginning of a long and winding rocky path that disappers out over the horizon at the base of a vast mountain range, with massive snow capped peaks with a background of looming billowing dark storm clouds... 
This is kinda of the feeling I have as I write this first real blog entry, due to the fact that this can go anywhere and at the same time everwhere. Personally I have been through a lot in the past two years and I can def say I'm far from the light at the end of the tunnel. (Ya no wonder I have looming storm clouds right) but this is kinda of a hopeful way to express some of the feelings and ease or rush to the light. How I am when I get there is another question entierly but for now I just need a change of senery! The dark scary forrest from a fairy tale is great for some things but not ideal to move on. Its great for being haunted with memories and wallowing. But its time for a change and this is the first step in the process!

Theres the Kick-off

So kinda of like the description stated this is just kinda of a free write for me to express myself or to just pass time as we go through life. To top it all off this is my first blog ever and I have worked on a few others but this is my first personal blog,
Just a little bit about me- I'm very active, basically I have A.D.D. and sitting still for very long is out of the question, I need to be doing something either playing online or working out or something. I'm also an outdoors man, I love camping, hiking, hunting, and surfing, along with any combination of all of the above. I travel constantly and have seen much of the world, I'm a pretty restless soul and home really isn't something I have had much of since leaving high school and Tucson to go to college.
But anyways well get on to the blogging, if you ever have questions of anything else just ask and I will most likely answer.